I want a baby!!

Darren and I moved into our 1st house in May 2002, and not long after that we decided to start trying for a baby. Oh boy! if only I realised back then how hard this was going to be.
My cycles were very irregular and to be honest back then I was VERY naive about TTC, I never really paid attention in school about sex ed, and really had no idea about ovulation. I was led to believe that you just wait a week after your period, have unprotected sex a few times for a week or two and bam your fall pregnant, after all that's how it happened for my mum, she had no problems getting pregnant, although she did have 2 miscarriages, but she gave birth to five of us, me first, then my brother Sean who sadly passed away a few months after he was born, she then went on to have my brother Kevin (now 26) my sister Holly (now 18) and my youngest brother Robert (15).
But unfortunately it didn't happen that way for me, months went by at a time and each time i thought I might of actually conceived I would sit excitedly pee on a stick so hoping for that 2nd line to show up. It never did.
It started eating me up inside, why cant I get pregnant? I'm not normal, there's something wrong with me.
By now i was 25 and had managed to put quite a bit on weight back on, I also noticed I was getting quite bad spots, more hair where i didn't want it, and real bad mood swings, sometimes bouts of depression. I was fed up and decided to take a trip back to the Dr's she said she would refer me to the infertility clinic!
I panicked 'does this mean I'm infertile?' will I not be able to have kids?? she reassured me that they would be able to help me but the waiting list was long, she advised me to loose weight in the meantime.
So home I went feeling a little positive, and I decided to diet, I hadn't given it a go before because Darren always told me my weight would never bother him and he would always love me.
So within a few weeks id managed to loose around 15lbs and was over the moon, then I had a period! great I thought.......... only this wasn't a normal period, this was a period from hell!! I bled non stop for five weeks very heavy with lots of cramps, I returned to the Dr who sent me for an emergency appt at the gynaecology dept. they did scans tests and all sorts, then sent me home with some tranexamic acid to reduce the bleeding and norethisterone to control my cycles. I managed like this for the time I was waiting to be seen by the specialists.
When my appointment came I went along and was explained how I wasn't ovulating and that I was to take provera for 7 days then start a cycle of Clomid and this would help me ovulate, still at this time I was very naive about TTC, Id never looked at a website to do with PCOS or TTC, I didn't know about OPK's or BBT's or even when I would ovulate. I feel pretty stupid admitting it, but i honestly expected it to be easy, after all people get pregnant all the time! and most my friends were or had children.
Obviously the round of clomid didn't work, and I got so depressed, I thought this is it, I'm never going to have kids, I started worrying Darren would leave me because I couldn't give him a child, he kept reassuring me that this wasn't an issue, and if we didn't become parents then that's just how it would be, it would never change the way he felt about me. So for a while I decided maybe this is how its meant to be, just me and Darren, happy together, childless...
Somehow I managed to put it all to the back of my head, and get on with things. As I did, the weight would creep back on and I would try again to loose it, each time I did I would have another five week bleed and ended up on norethisterone most the time.
By Dec 2007 on my 28th birthday i asked Darren to take some photos for me to scrapbook, I looked back through them on the PC in horror, did I really look like that?? Had i actually let myself get that big! I decided to weigh myself and almost chocked when the scales hit 22st 13. (320lbs) This was stupid, I needed to do something, So Jan 2008 I signed up to weight watchers, and since then a lot has happened so to cut a long story short I will summarise.

Jan 2008 weight watchers ready for a new me!
May 2008 Sold our house, moved in with Darren's mum,
June 2008 Plan and book to have our wedding in 2009
Dec 2008 Rethink having a family?? I'm getting old (29)
Mar 2009 We finally got married
May 2009 we move into a new place
Dec 2009 I'm 30! I DO want a BABY!! Finally find out all about TTC
June 2010 Darren has a heart attack due to smoking - He quits smoking
Sept 2010 I've lost 70lbs (5st)
Sept 2010 See fertility specialist, they are pleased Ive lost weight, I ask to start metformin
Oct 2010 I start metformin and told to try loose another 28lbs (2st) by my next appt Feb 2011 and they will then start me on clomid again. WOOHOO!!